Alfred Nigel Bruckner - Deutsches Museum München
I don't "hid" myself with my "BIPOLAR" and can talk freely about it, even in public, because I am not the
only one in the world.
2003, when I was still in Munich, the diagnosis "BIPOLAR" was first
mentioned. But I did not experience "effects" as otherwise described under this diagnosis - on the contrary! And so a "therapy" in the classical sense was not considered necessary and prescribed “Zyprexa”, which was then as “Olanzapin”
further on the market .... and I received every fews weeks my new recipe and I had "small talks" with my doctors.
Background to the story
Since 1995 I am a member of the Bacolod City Host Lions Club and was able to support projects of the club when I was in Bacolod.
was - until my early retirement in 2006 - from 1998 onwards temporarily in Bavaria or in Visayas and working mostly for media: regional newspapers and AM radio stations or in tourism.
In 2013, I became Melvin Jones Fellow of
the Lions Clubs International Foundation (LCIF) and had found "my" job for me: to support the orphanage Holy Infant Nursery in Bacolod, a project of Bacolod City Host Lions Club, and to collect donations in kind in Munich and in particular "food"
for my piggy banks.
I met Lion Betty at this time and we lived then since May 18th,
2014, together as "Husband and Wife" - even in a "Long Distance Relationship" because I was still engaged with Bayerisches Nationalmuseum and I travelled as often as it was possible in 2014, 2015 and 2016 until my move permanent from Munich to Bacolod.
And then - since 2016, when I did not have in the Philippines Olanzapin any more - I found out that I could return
to my former "status" before Olanzapin.
Again, I am very active and sometimes impatient and want to deliver the best "result" as soon as possible in perfect performance. This is - now and then - "too fast" for my environment.
in retrospect it can be seen that my return from the Philippines to my homecountry Upper Austria in the Holy Week was result of talking about a possible "separation" of Betty and myself on March 16th, 2017, leading to a spontaneous overreaction.
OK, it happened, but it was not "final", because Betty and I had not "given up" totally our relationship - thanks God!
I had also researched, what
is meant by "Bipolar". And, in retrospect of my life in the 72 years, I have the well-founded assumption that I was "BIPOLAR" already in my childhood ... but neither "recognized" nor treated.
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" R u s s k i "
"Life Computer" ..... Shut down and "Restart"
Fortunately, I had - after an accident on 15th June 2017 - for the first time "contact" with
the Hospital LKH in Steyr, when I was there for a few days stationary.
On this occasion, another long-standing story has become acute again: my thrombocytemia, with which I was previously many years in therapy in the Klinikum Schwabing in Munich. This could then be continued.
In the course of this, "BIPOLAR" was addressed, so that
I also receive the excellent "service" of the psychiatric outpatient department in the Steyr Hospital.
I would like to thank the crew at the Hospital in Steyr and have full confidence. Well, I also light a few candles for Santo Nino, the Visayan National Saint, which I have been admiring since the time I lived only one block away from his cathedral in Cebu.
And - in particular on my birthday June 27th, 2017 - I have set my "Life Computer on Restart" and have lived much more consciously since
Three things I have already "implemented" before or realized:
1 ) I do not longer know what is "stress", because this is usually most the result of inadequate "time management".
2 ) I can not annoy myself at all, which I can not influence and I live very well with it.
3 ) No one can "insult" me because a person
or institution that does, “downgrade” himself to a leveL below me .... and cannot not reach me.
Meine persönliche Erfahrung mit " B I P O L A R "
Motto: (er)lebe jeden Tag so, als wär's der Letzte